It’s happening again

Everyday living
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I went to gym this morning, early doors - I was on the treadmill before 9am

I then watched England smash Australia 3-1

Now I’m sitting at the table drinking peach schnapps with fruit juice

Also, yesterday, I broke my smoking abstinence. Went to see my dealer

Two weeks on Friday, we’ll be in September

Yesterday was it…it got to me hardcore…I’m gonna stop everything in September

When the weather cools I’ll be so much better. I’m literally at the end of my tether with it. It always happens like this, last few weeks of August and I’m balancing my sanity on a knife edge

I’m gonna ride with the drink tonight and tomorrow it’s just gonna be the smoking til the end of the month

I’ve done really well with the not drinking this year (3 nights of drinking since Jan 3rd) so I’m not gonna trip over my actions

Tomorrow we go again

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Whatever works for you. For me personally (and with me it was cigarettes only - lightweight) I did my share of giving up tomorrow/at the end of the week/month/year/busy period at work/warmer weather/cooler weather/after the holiday/when they found a cure for MS. Or whatever. One day I decided in the moment to just not have the next one and see what happened. For me, the fatal thing was always the thought of the miserable, pointless, joyless decades without cigarettes stretching out before me, so the trick was to not think further ahead than the next one. I haven’t had the next one yet. It’s very personal but it worked for me and I do not think anything else would have. I know you’re not asking for hints and tips, so I hope you don’t mind me sharing. Good luck.

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