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I'm Fine poem. How many times do we say this??!!!!

Thought I would share my ‘I’m Fine’ poem with you!!! So many times I say this, but in reality it’s a very different story…

What do you think?

I’m Fine

You look well

I’m fine

I’m wearing my new boots

I’m fine

I washed my hair

I’m fine

I’m wearing my favourite top

I’m fine

She’s gone

I look fine

She can’t see

I want to tear down the trees

Rip up all the grass

Crush the fence surrounding me

Kick all the people out of here

I’m a raging monster

But to her I’m fine

How are you?

I’m fine

You look good

I’m fine

You ok?

I’m fine

Repeat repeat repeat

I’m fine

I’m on the verge of drowning

But I’m fine

I’m thrashing in a raging sea

But I’m fine

I’m staring death in the face

But to you I’m fine

I’m the quiet one who’s always fine

I’m the one with a smile on her face

So I’m fine

I’m the one who laughs

So I’m fine

I’m walking a tight rope

But I’m fine

I’m wading in mud

But I’m fine

I’m buried in sand

But to you I’m fine

I’m the one who lies

I’m the one who laughs

I’m the one who lies

I’m the one who smiles

I’m the one who lies

I’m the one who cries behind your back

I’m so not fine

You don’t see the real me

You don’t feel the hurt

You don’t see the frustration

You don’t see the anger

I want to rip the heart out of my life

I want to jump off the highest bridge

I want to swallow a thousand pills

I’m screaming for help

But to you I’m fine

Copyright © & 2018 Snowman

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Oh, that’s too true. Sadly. I’ve stopped being ‘fine’. When anyone asks ‘how are you?’ I normally reply, ‘generally crap, but these are what currently ruining my life …’ And when I don’t, people look patronisingly kindly at me, because I’m the ‘poor soul in a wheelchair’!

Nice poem, says it how it is. Let’s not pretend that MS or disability or fun, or something to come to terms with. MS is crap.

Sue

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Agree. I’m slowly starting to say the truth, but then people just don’t know what to say back…

I’m sticking with I’m fine, what’s the point people don’t actually listen anyway they hear ‘blaa blaa blaa’ and move on to talk about themselves!

MS is crap Mx

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Thank you. I feel so much like that. Its so hard to put into words. Its worse when your not diagnosed so you don’t have a label yet. I hope you feel better soon xx

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Not everyone is the same!Talk to different people xx

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The only way to answer that question is honestly. Well today, i feel shit or whatever. So what if they are gobsmacked or shocked or taken aback. THATS NOT YOUR PROBLEM. Don’t lie. What’s the point in that? Better your family nd friends get to know how you feel from day 1.

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In scotland the answer to how are you is usually not bad although the answer from me is often bloody awful now to witch I’ve

Had o can’t be that bad back from gp - do you want to swap =black look.

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A powerful and very honest poem.

sometimes if people ask how I am doing, I will reply “do you really want to know?” If Yes I will tell them honestly, if No (or a pause) my answer is “as good as can be expected thanks”

Mick

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Thank you. I wish you well too. It’s so hard to put ms into words. I do better on paper!

Thank you! It’s so hard to put all the ms stuff in words if I’m asked if I’m ok without frightening people away. I guess you soon learn who wants to listen!

good poem

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Very good poem we can all relate to.

‘but you look so well’ people often say to me. But, as you said, they don’t see the real me, if only they could be in my body for just 5 minutes they would think it 5 minutes too long.

Jen

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I’m fine however your poem is excellent. Jan x

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Thankyou for sharing the poem. Very moving and true. How many people feel daily. With MS or not.

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I’m fine too, that’s what I tell most people… really good poem. I find that if I try to explain how ppms makes me feel people say “get some cannabis oil, it cures cancer so it should help you” or they say “I know someone with ms and they are fine!!” People don’t understand the things they cant see and we probably didn’t before ms. Karen

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Hi snowman,

I’m delighted that you shared your poem with us. It’s a brilliantly expressed piece and I’m always grateful when I read something I feel but haven’t found a way to articulate.

Thank you and well done.

Anthony

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Thank you for your kind words!

I’ve just re-read your poem Snowman. And I know I said straightaway that it’s great, actually it’s even better than I thought.

At first reading, I just thought ‘oh yeah, that’s how I feel’ but a second reading makes it seem even more poignant and utterly true. I truly think it’s a wonderful, evocative and meaningful poem.

I’m going to keep it for future reading and sharing with anyone who asks me ‘how are you?’

Sue

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I’m truly touched by your words thank you. I’ve only recently started writing poetry this year and find it a huge escape from almost 30 years of ms and a great way to express how I’m feeling. To hear people’s comments is just fab.Thank you. I’m glad you can connect with the poem!