I’m seriously considering applying for ill health retirement. I work for the NHS as a GP practice manager. In April we were taken over by a large group of GP’s and business managers, who obviously only care about a profit and seem to have little interest in their staff. Already about a quarter of the staff have left, including the previous practice manager who was ‘encouraged’ to retire. He gave three months notice but they made him leave much earlier so therefore I took over with very notice or induction. I’ve been at the practice for four years as a deputy practice manager so all the partners were aware of my MS.
Since then the job has become a nightmare! The main Business Manager Partner is forever telling me, my productivity is not good enough, my time keeping is poor, this is because under the previous partners I was allowed to go a little early if I was tired. On this particular day I had got to work half an hour early and only had a short lunch break, so left 10 mins early.
I’ve just had a week off with another relapse, my consultant wants to move me to Gilenya. Yesterday I had a review with the said manager and yet again she ripped into me. The meeting was supposedly to discuss what support I need, but she told me she didn’t know what support she could offer, the work load is not excessive, my work wasn’t good enough etc etc. I work 4 days a week, 8.00am to 6.00pm and they won’t let me change that. I don’t stop from the minute I get in, for the next 10 hours, most days I don’t even get 10 mins for lunch.
All of my team seem quite happy with me and I’ve had no complaints from any of them at all. I just think it’s not worth all of this stress, it’s making me ill. I seem to come home every night in tears. I’ve asked for an occupational health referral which the manager has done.
If I can hang on until April, a car loan will be finished and maybe if I can get my pension early, with a little part time, less stressful job things would be so much better.
I’m 51 on Friday and the thought of 15 years more like this is just too much.