Following yesterday’s post about the transport problems, I was left with no option but to make my way by public transport.
I carefully checked the bus timetables, and although there is only one service that goes that way, I carefully picked one that should still get me there with time to spare, even if it was a bit late.
Well, it wasn’t late - it just didn’t come at all. Eventually, after standing 30 minutes in the hot sun (there is no seat), getting both stressed and distressed, I texted the bus info number, and found the next one was still 13 minutes away - i.e. no longer any hope of making it to the hospital on time.
Rang the hospital, explained there was no way I could still do it without being at least half an hour late. They suggested they could still see me IF it was “important”, but if it was just a routine follow-up, they suggested they send me a new date.
I couldn’t pretend it was “important”, as I’d never wanted to go in the first place, so I accepted the new date, which I was warned might be “some time away”. So I’m going to have to go through this whole wind-up again, at a date yet to be confirmed.
Now about to pour myself a large drink, which I’m sure is not recommended on top of all the diazepam I’ve already taken, but I’m STILL not calm!
And it just goes to show I’m not getting things out of proportion, when I think I can’t rely on the buses to get me to appointments on time.
In a way I am relieved, as I hadn’t wanted to go anyway, and if the bus company have a driver missing, or a vehicle off the road, then presumably I’d have faced the same problem getting home again. I’m always exhausted after the hospital, and I couldn’t have stood another 45 minutes in baking sun, after already doing it on the way out.
So all over for this time.
Meantime I suppose I’d better see the GP, and see if there’s any help for being “phobic” about the hospital. But I think I can see WHY I’m phobic, when I can’t just go, and everything be alright. It adds greatly to the stress, when you’re not in control of whether you even get there or not.