Just wondering if I'm going down hill.
I'm emotional, my feet tingle, at present my legs are heavy, I tripped too many times to count today and burst into tears because I was struggling to walk properly. I have had a lot of stressed lately looking for work and I'll admit I have been panicking and doing the general mum role. I really need a job and have been worrying how I'll be despite laws etc,all which goes against those with a disability. I worry that my disability will take over, at present I start off walking ok then after a while my leg struggles to lift properly and I trip (scuffed my shoes badly)guess I should say bye to any hope of walking back in heels again ads my balance is totally crazy (I try to hide it).
I saw my nurse last week for check up and was told possibly stress. Wondering if I'm getting worse as I'm lacking energy,lacking motivation, just lacking and I can't afford to be lacking anything right now.I don't feel happy, struggling.....I'm meeting a friend for lunch Friday in an effort to shake this feeling as I know it's not healthy. I am due for my period so perhaps it's PMS I don't know. I've put on weight around my middle which is awful especially as summer is around the corner, that's upset me too as I have no energy for exercise right now nor money. Right now everything feels overwhelming. Got a job interview on Monday,hope I do ok as really need job and really need to shake this feeling.
Sorry to sound so miserable, sometimes I wonder if MS affects my moods, hope not.
Thanks for reading this,