I love my job and I don’t want to have to give it up but I am really, struggling greatly with making the commute into work everyday. I worked for 4 years in Uni to get this job, but it is an hour and forty-five minutes (if on time) by train. I have to get up at 5:30AM and am home around 7:00PM. I used to go to the gym and yoga to help ease myself symptoms but since starting my job I haven’t gone to the gym once. I literally just go right to bed, usually too tired even to heat up dinner.
Even without MS, this would be extremely challenging… with MS is almost impossible. I just don’t know what to do. (It’s a job that requires me to be there and I can’t work from home, and my multiple sclerosis being miraculous cured is probably more possible than me ever being able to afford to move to the city).
I just feel like I’m wasting my youth… I’m spending the prime time of my life asleep on a train and it’s causing me a lot of sadness. But I can’t just walk away from this job it’s an incredible opportunity and I love the work, my fatigue just ruins everything. I just feel like I’m going to look back and regret on wasting my youth when I could have been out having fun and making friends and getting fit.
No matter what option I pick I feel I can’t win.