I am venting.
I am going through a bad relapse where I can no longer walk as legs are heavy, numb and not supporting my own weight. I am numb from the waist down, so far steroids are not working.
Because of my legs I have to use a mobility scooter to move and I feel embarrassed and about it.
I know this sounds horrible, but, I feel there are too many people out there who use a mobility scooter but don’t really need to. It really peeves me off that I really need to use one. I just feel annoyed with the whole situation. I felt terrible when I was awarded DLA as I felt there was people out there more disabled than me.
I was diagnosed 8 years ago and have done my best not to let it beat me or get the better of me. As this is the worse I have ever been I feel people think I am one of the ‘pretenders’ using a scooter. Hope this makes some sort of sense.
I suppose I feel that the cheaters are making a mockery of people who are in genuine need of assistance.