So, back in January (jan 2nd) I was diagnosed with “Probably MS but as we only have 1 MRI scan we’ll classify it as CIS and rescan you soon. You only have 3 small leisons so we’ll watch and wait” 9 months on from that, I have been rescanned and essentially, the neurologist has hit the panic button. My brain has gone full nuclear with lots of new lesions with a current relapse going on which has resulted in me losing my taste & smell on one side as well as the insane levels of brain fog and fatigue, so, in his words “we need to treat this aggressively, now, we’ll start with tysabri” a needle later and I’m now waiting on JC virus and chicken pox results.
I’m 5 months away from qualifying as a midwife and trying to write my dissertation. Its not going to plan! I feel like I can barely string a coherent sentence together let alone write a legible dissertation. I’m not upset, im pissed off. Pissed off that I can’t write or function like a normal midwife and I’m annoyed that I’ve came so damn far through my degree and might fall at the final hurdle.