What did I do…….

To deserve this? Not just MS and all its wonderful gifts, symptoms and difficulties, but now my husband is becoming increasingly forgetful. I know where this is going having lost my mum to dementia. I’m not going to be able to look after him, and he’s not going to be able to help me much either. We have no family, not that I would expect them to put their lives on hold to look after us.
I know I’m lucky in that we own our own home and have quite good pension income, so will be able to pay for additional care, but right now that doesn’t make me feel any better.
I feel so alone. I have friends but they have their own lives and families and I can’t and won’t burden them. I just feel so completely alone and abandoned.
Sorry for being such a misery.


Sorry to hear this. Has your husband been seen by a doctor?

allo love.
sorry things feel so bad right now.

First off…you DIDN’T do anything to deserve this. None of us did. I see it as our bodies arent perfect and they do go wrong.

Ive probably told you how my thinking changed almost 2 years ago…after 23 years or so of coping pretty well, despite needing carers for so much, that I hit a wall…didnt have a clue as to how the future would work…no more ‘oomph’ to fight on.

Then I prayed to God for guidance and then something so amazing happened! Jesus came and rescued me!

The lonely feeling went and I cope so much better now. He will help you too, if you just ask.
much love,

I’m pleased you feel Jesus rescued you and respect your belief in the power of prayer. I don’t want to get into a theological debate. I know people whose faith is a great support and comfort to them. When I was a little girl in church/Sunday School we were praying for the starving children in Africa, 60 years on children are still starving and not just in Africa. Now in churches we’ve been praying for an end to the war In Ukraine for over a year, not to mention all the other terrible things that are going on in the world, and the suffering of so many people locally and worldwide.


Yeh, there is so much bad stuff going on in the world.

So much caused by man’s inhumanity to man.Greed and power…great sins.