So today is a bad day for me. It started last night when my legs kept giving way and I had a job to stand. I feel very tried today and everything hurts, I have a job moving limbs and speech is a little wobbly here and there, my hearing is a lot lower than it should be and my eye sight is really struggling. …But I’m keeping smiling despite all this as I haven’t been diagnosed yet, my scan is on Thursday and in the back of my mind I can’t help feeling awful for calling this a bad day or guilty. I feel like if i knew is was MS i could confidently say ‘this is a bad day’ because I knew the cause. Without it I keep thinking what if it’s not that? I know they most likely wouldn’t send me to see a MS specialist if they didn’t think that was what it is, but there is still the what if and that makes me feel guilty.
Does anyone else feel like this sometimes before diagnoses?