Just a moan and a bit of a request for a virtual hug really.
I normally have quite a positive attitude towards my life really. I have a great husband, I can still work (with major adjustments) and I know that I am far, far, far better off than many other people with MS. However, sometimes you have to acknowledge something that stops you dead as if you have hit a brick wall.
I know that I have walking problems but I had always just thought that I was slow and a bit wobbly" but today I saw a video my husband had taken and I ended up in floods of tears.
We have a new puppy and Dai has been putting together a You Tube video of him. One of the shots he took (without me knowing!!!) was a rear shot of me walking through the park with Bert on his lead.
I couldn’t beleive how awful my walking was - not only was I slow and wobbly, I was really stooped and I was moving like a wind-up toy. (I was moving just like Douglas Bader for those of us old enough to remember “Reach For the Sky” )
AND THIS WAS ON A VERY GOOD DAY!!!
Like I said, I know that I am very lucky compared to lots of people but sometimes seeing the reality really hurts. (Mind you, I didn’t complain about how big my bum looked which was what Dai thought I was going to complain about!)