My oh my I'm at end of tether... or was. Now I've made a decision I feel a bit better.
I started yet another medication on Friday. Topamax (aka Topiramate). It's another of those epileptic med's like Gabapentin and Pregamalin. Neuro wanted me to try it for spasms and 'hug'. I had come off Gaba as my tinnitus (which they think is MS related) went through the roof, and had come of Prega as gave me a dodgy heartbeat...
Anyway, was quite pleased first few days on Topamax. Didn't feel zombied out. No spasms. Bit concerned that tinnitus went up in intensity.
And then it went UP. And UP. AND UP.
At 3 o'clock this morning I was sitting up in bed with the screeching in my head at an unbelievable volume. Thought my head would explode. Really guys, I thought if I have to live with this... well to be frank.. I can't. Life would not be worth living.
So decision is made. Bye bye Topamax. I was only on 25g (very low dose) and only for 6 nights so I don't expect any withdrawal.
It's still really really bad but knowing that I've stopped the med's and it should start lowering to it's normal level is keeping me going. (how I feel right now... and exhausted)