The title of this message says it all. I have had one kick in the teeth after another this year and every time I think I am pulling myself together and getting out of relapse or getting over the latest UTI or chest infection, another thing comes along and knocks me flat on my back again as if Mohammed Ali had socked me when at the peak of his boxing career.
My licence was put on the standard 3-year-renewal 3 years ago. I haven’t had any concerns about renewing it and in fact when I saw my neurologist in May he suggested I go to a local company called DriveAbility and have a driving assessment so that when the DVLA write to him, he has something to base his report around. I had the assessment in June - it included a Speed of Reaction test and then a driving test which lasted about an hour and a half. All went well and the assessor suggested the only change he would suggest is having a ball fitted to the steering wheel to help me turn corners, as my left hand cannot grip the steering wheel hard enough so my right hand does all the work. No problem, I had one fitted on my car and it is really good.
Then the letter came from the DVLA. I filled it in and sent it back not expecting any problems. Back came their reply which said that ‘the combination of tablets I am on cause drowsiness, which would make me a danger to other road users’. I am totally and utterly shocked, gobsmacked and stunned!! More independence gone - I already have to have a carer to shower and dress me; now I cannot drive either. My wife will have to run me everywhere and I cannot even do a little thing like pick up our 15 year-old lad from school.
To say this has depressed me is an understatement. I have been fighting depression for over 2 years and now I am totally flat and am struggling to come to terms with not being able to drive ever again. My wife has said it’s an inconvenience but not the end of the world, but it feels like it to me. 33 years of driving, a totally unblemished driving record, not a single point ever on my driving licence. My brain has all but given up now.
Am I over-reacting or not? Is this a childish reaction or not? Should I just accept it and move on? Or should I just curse this condition again and think back only 5 years when I could walk 3-4 miles without a break, now I cannot walk 100 yards!