Tomorrow I’m going out shopping with my mum and sister, this is going to be a bit of a trial by fire for me as generally the only time I set foot outside is if I’m going to the hospital or some other appointment type thing. I can get around indoors pretty well, sometimes (though not at the moment) walking feels normal indoors, though not on the stairs, or if the phone rings while I’m in the kitchen and I attempt to hurry into the living room, lol, I think I probably look like I’ve got a pirate’s wooden leg at that time!
But this is going to be the first time since my MS caused me to not be able to work that I’ll have been out somewhere all day. Somewhere involving mainly moving about rather than somewhere where most of the time is spent sat. Though, having said that, one of the places Mum’s wanting to go is DFS, so I’ll def be up for some intensive “product testing” in there ;D
My mum’s doing the mum thing and worrying that I’m going to suddenly HAVE to stop and end up lying on the floor in Dunhelm or something. Hopefully that’s not likely to happen >< But I have found that my walking problems/fatigue issues can’t be predicted (is that the same for anyone else?), so yeah, tomorrow is uncharted territory for me. I’m fully intending to hold mum or Em’s arm in areas where there’s room, so I’ll be able to go much further before starting to physically struggle by doing that, but who knows when physical/mental fatigue might decide it’s time to say hi.
Not too long ago I roped my mum into going to Aldi with me. This was not too long before the relapse that I’m currently coming out of. For the last 2 years it’s worked that way, I recover enough to start little expeditions outside again then bam, relapse. Aldi’s 7 minutes stroll away. I got there with no problem (did struggle a bit on the way back, but not badly), I wasn’t holding mum’s arm. In the store I had the trolley of course, those are wonderful for supporting you aren’t they! felt so secure, maybe I should steal one and become a bag lady.
Anyway…visiting a physical supermarket again was a BIG learning experience for me (I shop online with Tesco now). Up until that moment I’d fully expected that any time I got to recover enough I’d be able to slowly start getting groceries again myself. Because I’d only been considering the physical side of things. Being there in Aldi gave brain a chance to show me how it dealt with a supermarket environment now, which was to basically go, “nope, too much input, I’m shutting down now!”…So online grocery shopping/home delivery really is a life saver for me, because unless I have a large amount of cognitive improvement, actual food shopping’s a nonstarter.
So tomorrow’s going to be interesting from that aspect too! I’m hoping for some positive impressions at the end of tomorrow. I’ll be going into it feeling positive anyway, that hopefully counts for something!