Well the bubble has burst. As most of you know I told my parents on sunday about my partner being jewish. I wasn’t expecting them to accept him - in fact I was expecting it to be an argument. Suprisingly they seemed to accept it and met him. I was so happy and proud of the way my parents handled it. Even with the possibility of an MS diagnosis I felt happy knowing that everything else was falling into place.
They’ve now turned round and said they’re not happy. They’re not arguing but laying the guilt; you’re going to give us up for someone you’ve known for four years, I’m feeling really ill and dizzy after what you’ve told us, if anything happens to us its your fault, just marry somebody hindu we’ll give you money, leave you alone etc etc. Even my sister seems to have back tracked and is saying I don’t want my kids to be doing what you’re doing so I can’t support you.
I feel completely heart broken. It would have been better if they’d just said no when I told them. At least i was prepared for it. Now its like I had a glimpse of what it could have been like and its all been taken away. I’m upset they’re trying to manipulate me and make me feel guilty with their health. I could do that to them but haven’t. I wanted to shout and argue but haven’t I ended the conversation saying I don’t feel like talking right now. But now I don’t feel like talking to them tomorrow or the day after or the day after. I just know they’re going to try and persuade me and put the guilt on and I don’t think thats fair or right. It would be even worse if I went down in person to talk because all three of them would gang up on me. I don’t want to hurt them or upset them but can’t they see this perosn makes me happy and will look after me. Even if its a mistake - its my mistake to make.
The worse thing is they keep saying theyre trying to protect me when I could throw back into their face that my cousin under their roof was molesting me. But I haven’t as it was in the paast and bringing it up won’t change that it happened and would only ruin more lives.
My symptoms have been all over the place a bit since sunday and now this isnt helping matters. I just feel very upset and low. Partners trying to be there and giving suggestions but makes me feel even more bad. Marc did as much as he could to make them feel comfy and reassure them when he met them. I knew it wasn’t going to be plain sailing when we told them on sunday but to have it all accepted then taken away is more heart breaking.
Sorry for rambling. Just feeling quiet emotional at the mo.