I’m not actually new to the forum but haven’t posted in a few years now and cannot for the life of me remember either my username or password, so new account to make a new post, browser told to remember the details so I don’t have to! I’m sure many of you can identify with memory issues. The one that’s really baking my noodle lately is my maths brain. Or lack thereof these days!
As a child I would come top of the class with maths. Then as my symptoms began to develop (I’ve had them since age 7) I got worse and worse at maths. By GCSE I’d gone from straight A’s to a C. By age 38 I can do only very basic calculations without a calculator or Excel to help me. Thankfully, I’m pretty good with Excel and have set up some fairly complex spread sheets to manage things like finances, but cannot for the life of me cope without a device for anything mathematical!
I’m a writer and love words and languages, always doing well with those and haven’t lost that mental faculty at all. However, bring numbers in and I cannot hold them in my head for more than three seconds! Instant goldfish . I do things like read a date and time for an appointment and between looking at the letter and looking at my calendar, I’ve got the wrong date. If there are 9s or 7s in a number, forget about me being able to add, subtract, multiply or divide it. I read 5 as 2, 6 as 9 and vice versa on both. Number blind! It’s like a dyslexia exclusively for numbers. And I never used to have it!
Different areas of the brain are responsible for language and maths, I know, and perhaps I have a legitimate reason after all to be absolutely pants at maths. But it’s embarrassing. I’m articulate, obviously not thick, but the looks I get when I can’t look at two items in a shop and calculate that £1.99 plus £1.99 comes to £3.98 (I almost decided £2.98 there, for example) and I only have £3.50 in my pocket, I want the ground to swallow me whole!
Does anyone else experience difficulties with one major cognitive faculty and not another? My MS is well underway and I’m heading into SP from R&R so I don’t have too many expectations of it recovering. But I can’t be the only one… can I?