Hi guys, thanks for all the replies and hugs as could really do with them. Carers meeting are not really my thing, I am not the type to talk face to face with strangers as don’t like being emotional in public places, maybe once things settle down with Rachael I would feel more inclined to join something like that. I know I am on here a lot complaining or sharing my worries and I feel sometimes that I have no right to do that as it’s not me that has MS and how dare I put my worries out there to people who do have it and I am taking up space that belongs to people with real problems and worries. Just feeling sorry for myself. Linda x
Hey Linda Dont you worry about posting on here no one will think any the less of you, your a caring mum that’s looking for support and rest assured you’ll get it here. It must be hard on you having to deal with both your nearest & dearest (daughter & mum) that would be a weight for anyone to bear. Try talking to your hubby if you can as I’m sure in his own little world he must be finding it hard too. I’ve always said there’s no love like a mothers love but a girls first love is always her father’s and he will be feeling it too if not showing it. Stay strong and keep coming here for support (((((HUGS))))) Sue xx
Just a wee update guys. My phone beeped earlier and it was my best friend just asking how things were going with me and Rachael. Gave her a quick update, the last 2 days had been good and looking forward to holiday and I asked how her and her family were. She replied that was good about Rachael and what had I been up to lately, thought about how to answer that then decided to be truthful. I told her my world had become really small, went nowhere other than work and things that concerned Rachael (ie. neuros, docs, gym, being a taxi for Rachael), and that I spoke to no one other than Rachael and my husband anymore. She said why did I not contact her as she just sat in house at night by herself as fiance always working at night and her kids are grown so either out or sitting in their room and she would come to mine so I could stay near Rachael. Don’t know what to think, because of how I have been feeling recently not really been using Facebook the way I would but today Rachael was being a bit pathetic about going to the gym and it was really funny so I took a video and posted it. Also posted about count down to holiday. So am assuming she saw these posts and realised I was not so down so felt able to reach out. Taking it at face value and not going to try and analyse it too much or try to put a negative spin on it. I seem to be doing that a lot recently. Will reach out and invite her over. Linda x
Great news that your best friend contacted you - thought she was probably just not sure if you had too much on your plate and didn’t want to add to it. Glad that she’s called you and that you are going to arrange a get together - it’s important for you to have a break as much as Rachael. Have a fab holiday x
Good on you Linda, I have been a bit the same about me - I’ve had a few cards and messages (that I say thank you for) but I can’t face the reaching out nit - whereas is I get a call, it’s fine and I talk. I guess it’s a little about feeling like you’re being needy.
It’s silly really but I think we also worry about bringing other down with our problems. Anyway, she sounds like a good friend so take her up in the offer and invite her over 
Sonia x
Glad to hear you and your friend are getting together.
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