I know what you mean (to some degree), but as well as the symptoms of MS which aren’t much fun, I do regret the loneliness, as people quite simply, do treat me differently. As well as that, I am afraid that several people around me are envious of my lack of activity. It seems to be six of one and half a dozen of the other!
I agree with what you say and also what Moira says. I have the MS fatigue and it affects me on a daily basis. Sometimes I sleep for 6 hours in the afternoon. Day gone. But when you try and tell others all I get back is, well, at least you can sleep, I can’t!!! Drives me crackers. Don’t they realise I am sleeping in the evening, then at night, very well. Sleeping my life away some days. Oh well, count to 100 and the rest !!
Im smiling whilst reading your message. Yes we do have more time to see what is around us, to help others and put our disease into perspective.
Ive found its finding oneself - the bits which were never allowed time to grow is the best thing about having something to slow us down and make us think and act more the way we always wanted to but never had time.
I thank you for sharing, yes sometimes there are things about disease which brings out the best in people. Perhaps our politicians might consider hindering themselves to try understand what the disabled have to contend with and live within limited means yet still smile through it all.
Yes have learnt a lot I think. Used to always be chasing something… better job, better social life, more money. Now I live day to day. Don’t care what people think of me. Don’t plan for the future. Don’t mourn for the past. Live in the moment. Appreciate small everyday stuff that used to pass me by.
Shame it took this huge giant MS to open my eyes to what’s important in life… but it is the gift of MS… for all it’s awful impact on the body it can also teach some valuable lessons.
The “me” I was before hasn’t changed with the MS - if anything, I find that I’m becoming less tolerant of numpties. But I bite my tongue and try not to let it be apparent, it’s not their fault they’re stupid. I detest having this disease and being ill all the time, and knowing that it’s not going to get better - if I’m lucky it’ll stay the same. This doesn’t make me very sympathetic to people who complain about everyday stuff, or having a cold.
The only positive thing that MS has brought me is a few new friends that I wouldn’t otherwise have met.