Miss cup half full has dropped her glass …DX In June …was miss cup half full but still making frustratingly slow slow progress from relapse ( told suspected 's 2 years ago but did the head down arse up ostrich impression and cancelled 2 Neuro appointments …view being better not to know.( how much do j regret that approach now ) …ct scan and Neuro now say I have had this for at least 6 years ) …since DX grandad died …split with the bloke ( not as bad as it sounds as been having doubts ( me ) for last year so not a tragic event …but suffice to say " high Times and hols" not enough for me any more ! ) and still signed off work ( am workaholic who loves her job ) …and may well need to cconsider talking shares out in Tenna lady !
Lots to be thankful for …full sick pay , lots of support from kids ,family and friends , still have own hair and teeth and can usually laugh at fact I walk like a pissed crab in stilettos…but tonight I am angry and frustrated ( OK so a bottle of wine hasn’t,t t helped ! )
Waiting game is getting to me …so I can play …monopoly, trivial pursuit and cards againstt humanity but the waiting for …physio , 's Neuro ( to prescribe dmd) and urologist is not a game I want to play.( know we r so lucky to have nhs …but so frustrated by the wait ) …it’s taking so long to get over this relapse …I,m just 44 and want to be me again …
I, m so sorry to 'vent …life could be so much worse …but I,m angry and pissed off that I am not miss cup half full who always see,s the sunny side of life at the mo …I wanna be me …the gal that works hard , parties hard and laughs her way through life’s downs
I,.Sorry for the rant and as penance I will find something to now post on jasse,s happy thread ( yes May have been silent but have still been stalking…fab thread by the way jasse /)
Sorry once again for miss cup half empty rant …Thanks for listening …please tell me it’s normal to feel like this