At the moment I haven’t a clue what is wrong with me. I don’t know if my symptoms will lead to a diagnosis of MS or something else. Whatever the future brings, it has been a comfort to see posts from people with things happening to them that seem to be happening to me. Over 2 years ago I went to the doc because I couldn’t shake the fatigue that I was feeling. She did lots of bloods and couldn’t find anything wrong. It eventually lifted and I was fine for about 6 months. It lifted again after about a month so I didn’t go back to her. About 2 months ago something happened that made me stop and examine my health more. I realised that increasingly I was unable to find words in my head when I needed them. I would also lose track of what I was saying and encounter a blank wall in my head. I found that instead of heading for my car to go into town I was stood in our front room with my keys in my hand trying to unlock the standard lamp. My children have commented that I have become very forgetful (which they love!!).
I have also become so clumsy. I fall sideways for no reason. I am forever dropping things or knocking them over. I reach for things and think i have got hold of them, then find I haven’t. This is not good when beekeeping I hasten to add! I have found that this has happened a couple of times over the last couple of years. Also my hand gets the shakes terribly.My shoulder twitches on the same side of the body. I have real problems with swallowing and my speech seems to become slurred. It feels like my body has forgotten how to do these things.
I went back to the doctor two months ago and when I showed her my hand and explained what i had noticed she decided to refer me to the neurologist. I have an appointment on the 7th Aug. The last couple of days have felt so much worse that I am starting to count down the days. I had started to feel brighter so decided to try and get on my exercise bike. I didn’t do much because I didn’t want to overdo it. I was fine when i got off and went and had a bath. When I went to get out I had problems as my legs had decided to join my shaky hand and i had trouble standing. The shaky leg feeling has continued and although I mentally want to get and do things it feels as though my legs are going to give way when I’m standing. I’m hoping this stops soon!
I’m sorry this seems to have turned into an essay. I try to talk to my husband about this but I don’t think he understands how this is actually making me feel. I say I feel tired all the time and he just turns it round to how tired he is. I guess I just need a little reassurance at the moment that I am still (slightly) sane!