Hi, I hope everyone is doing as well as possible. I didn’t really want to have to post this on here, but I literally have nowhere else to turn. Some of you may remember that I posted way back in January about feeling really depressed. Well for the last few weeks I have started to feel really down again, even more depressed than last time. The strange thing is that there is no trigger this time. Everything else in my life is going ok, apart from feeling poorly with my crohn’s disease. I feel really unstable, like I am on the edge of having a breakdown. I seem to be spending a lot of time crying and feeling utterly hopeless and utterly broken.
I just don’t know what to do anymore. I am trying to get the money together to see the mental health team privately, but I don’t know how I am going to do this, as I can barely afford to pay the bills and my PAs. There is no point in refering myself back to the NHS mental health team cos they weren’t interested back in January, so I doubt they will be interested now. Really sorry to post on here, but just had to let it out, lots of love Bex xxx