hi, im really really fed uppppp today, the thought of i wish i was dead came to my mind today, even thou im a strong person, considering been thru the last 2yrs of hell with this latest relapse.
tried to take a short walk today,as was having breathing probs, so thought maybe low on oxygen, put my coat on and boots and started off okay, walked only a bit, then wish i never went out. couldnt feel one of my legs at all, feet went numb, breathless, could not even focus on where i was going. god knows how i got back home, wasnt even far.
i dont understand, y is it harder to walk outside than inside the house?
on top of it all, had diarrhea, made me weaker, always having probs with my stomach, and digesting food, but docs always put it down to ms.