I have posted previously that I was given a CIS diagnosis three years ago and have recently had/am currently having a second ‘episode’ which prompted a visit to the neurologist who classified it as a relapse.
At that appointment my neurologist referred me for an MRI but has said that whether or not it conclusively shows MS (two previous scans, the last in early 2016 having been clear) I will now be eligible for treatment, either with a range of options if MS is confirmed, or with an interferon if not, since I have now had two clinically observed/documented relapses.
I had my MRI last Thursday and this Monday I rang the neurology secretary to see what the likely wait for the results would be. She told me that my report had been sent through from radiology that morning, which was apparently quick and I should receive a letter by the end of the week.
My reason for posting is a bit daft really; I just want to feel like I am actually doing something because I am a nervous wreck at the moment and can’t seem to calm myself down. I am obsessing about every possible scenario and second-guessing every insignificant detail (the scan came back quickly, that must mean it’s bad news/the scan came back quickly, that must mean it’s clear) and I am driving myself insane in the process.
My biggest fear is that the scan will show nothing, which is clearly ridiculous, but I have now had two relapses, and from my neurology examination and two subsequent field-of-vision tests it has been established that there is a problem with my left eye and that is freaking me out as much as the left-sided weakness which doesn’t seem to be improving. It’s almost as though my problems have got worse since I saw the neurologist and I began to acknowledge the possibility of MS. Could I be thinking all of these symptoms and they’re not really there??? If the scan is clear, WTH is wrong with my eye???
The gears of the NHS grind soooooo slowly. What is wrong with email people?? I am having to restrain myself from pestering the neuro secretary to read my letter to me over the phone.
Please, somebody slap me!