I am really down at the moment due to struggling so badly with my concentration, particularly at work. I work in I.T. in a Systems Development Team.
Lately I feel like I’m doing a new job and every morning when we have our regular meeting to say what we’ve been doing I often have to say I haven’t finished my task, I spend most of my day fumbling around despite writing down detailed lists of what I need to achieve. We then have to demonstrate our new systems to the business and this fills me with dread and doesn’t help my nervous system!
My team are far quicker than me, even the newbies. My boss reckons he’ll support me, but when it comes to the crunch I’m just not delivering.
I don’t know whether to be totally honest. A few times I’ve felt like just giving-up but then pulled myself up again. I have a wife, children and a mortgage to pay.
I’ve had the cognitive testing and they did score me low in a few areas. I want to work! People think I’m making it up when I say I can’t concentrate, as I look ‘normal’.
Anyone else in the same situation out there??