I am waiting to do a second MRI scan the 25th of November 2018 with the NHS , unfortunately everything seems to be MS , I have partially lost my left eye vision in May 2018 , I though that I could recover it but never happened.
I am a bit scared about my future , I feel like that I don t have time anymore to do all the things I was planning to do, I wake up with anxiety and go to sleep with anxiety , there is not a single moment of the day that I am not thinking about the MS because is right there , I can see everyday from my left eye that this disease will always stay with me . I Always used contact lenses and been extra careful with my eyes , for me is difficult to accept this vision lost.
I am scared to loose the drive licence too. I pretend to be strong and think less when I am with my friend , with my partner or when I am having a Skype call with my family
hopefully with time I will accept what is happening now in my life.