Most (all?) prescription drugs have risks and side-effects, but ALL of them also have benefit for some people, in some circumstances, so I don’t think it’s helpful to brand any licensed and properly prescribed drug as “addictive”, and say people should not take it.
I have used diazepam (another drug in the same family) intermittently for many years, to control anxiety. By “intermittently”, I mean I can go weeks or months without needing it, depending how my health behaves, and one pack of 28 can stay in the cupboard for months. Despite all the scare stories, I’ve never yet become addicted. So just because some people DO become addicted doesn’t mean every individual will react the same. Just like only a very few people who drink alcohol will become alcoholics. It’s true that you do not know, before taking it (either alcohol OR a prescription drug) whether you are one of the people likely to be susceptible to addiction…
However, in the case of drugs, your doctor should weigh up with you the benefits, versus any possible risks or problems - that’s part of their job.
I have unquestionably benefited from diazepam, and no awful things have happened as a result of my using it, neither has my consumption spiralled over the years.
Maybe it isn’t “good for me”, but I’m sure being crippled with anxiety, to the point of being locked in the loo throwing up wasn’t “good for me”, either, so which is the lesser of two evils?
It would be wonderful if we could all make do with nothing, for any of our health issues, and just get by with positive thinking, but sometimes that’s just not practical, is it?
I know you’re not taking the clonazepam for anxiety, by the way, but whatever the underlying reason, if you need it, and it helps, I don’t think it’s any good getting too worked up about the addiction issue. I’m sure your doc will monitor your usage carefully, and intervene if there are any concerns.
Incidentally, mixing with alcohol can amplify the effects of BOTH, so be careful. Unless you were taking huge doses, it’s not that you are at risk of death, but you may become more intoxicated more quickly than you’d allowed for, and so be at higher risk of accident.
Doubling the dose in one move could also be a cause of your recent problems. Were you told you could go up to two if necessary? If so, maybe split the difference, and try 1.5 next time?
Or it may be that you were just having a rough few days, and will go back to being OK with one.
If you try to stick to the minimum that works, and not keep feeling tempted to “give it a boost”, you will reduce the chances of addiction.