Thanks folks, good luck with your knots Shell. I know what you mean. The thought of getting a dog has crossed my mind many times, but until I can get active, I feel, I’m being unfair. Dogs have way more energy than me at the moment. Cats are cool, but the Birds are vulnerable.
As for spring, it’s always been my favourite season. Daffodils are a great sign. Yellow is a great colour. So too is the Blue Bells in the woods. The fresh Green of new creation. Colour after the dark nights & Grey days.
Health wise. I’m getting lots of discharge from my eyes & hearings some strange frequencies. Walking is becoming quite painful. It’s like walking on gravel bare foot. Resting, used to sort me out. Now when I wake, I have to be ready for what’s next. Insane head aches, dizziness, tremors, cramps & zero energy. Telling myself to get up & do things is frustrating when I struggle. I try & start to cry. That’s when it gets messy. Luckily I always stock up on plenty of tissue. The discharge seems endless. I try not to get upset around people. My own torment, isn’t something to be around. When I start stuttering, that means I’m holding back. The stuttering seems to be triggered by frustration. When I’m centred & at peace. I see things in a hole new light. I would dance if it wasn’t so painful & dizzy. I should of been in a wheelchair long ago, but I keep saying to myself. Use it, or lose it. I don’t think that works, but it keeps me going. The joints are creaking. I told my Neurologist, it feels like I’m a bag of gravel. I sometimes think my lungs have forgot how to breath & putting my chin on my chest is causing pain in my spine. My ankles throb with pain. My legs feel so weak. Fatigue knocks me out. I’ll tell myself to get busy, push myself & shortly after I’m off to the land of nod. I’m so stubborn, I just keep fighting it. Trying to think of ways to achieve things. That’s when the depression kicks in. I tell it where to go. It makes me laugh. I see a smiley face & just plough on. I’m not a religious person, but something keeps me going. Peace, unity, LOVE & having fun. It’s not all problems.
Take care out there fellows. No pain, no gain. OUCH!