One for women.
I’m in BIG trouble, I’ve got to have a biopsy, one that is thought of by some medics as “extremely painful and unnecessary” but… I’m extremely phobic! I struggle with the dentist, smear tests are about as much as I can handle, and I couldn’t even handle a vaginal ultrasound and felt bruised inside for two days after. I came home in a daze after the ultrasound and have felt the panic rising since, I understand that everyone might be anxious, but this is something else… Imagine your fear of heights and being made to do a parachute jump without any instruction or support!
I’m not sleeping properly at night so I’m sleeping later in the morning then crashing in the afternoon, as usual, but later, I feel my mood (already low) sinking rapidly, I don’t want to go out or do anything interesting, and I’m doing stuff out of necessity or habit but not taking any real pleasure from anything.
I’ve not seen my GP yet and don’t know what to say! How do you tell a doctor that although you’re a normally sensible, well informed middle aged adult you just can’t handle stuff like this!
Because its gynaecological I need the heaviest sedation and a hysterectomy, forget the bloody biopsy, it’s pointless whatever the result shows I’ll still probably need one anyway so once it’s done no more issues! But with the NHS having no money and some additional complications from myself their obviously trying not too do one.
Is there anyone out there who knows how I can get my message across? Either, leave me alone (not gonna happen this could be something sinister) or find another solution (eg: lots of drugs))
Soz I needed to have a good rant whilst begging for help.