It doesn’t sound unusual to feel really emotional about getting a diagnosis of MS. Let’s face it, who the hell is going to feel positive about it? (Unless you’ve been in limbo for years and convinced you have it, in which case a diagnosis is a good thing - sorry Zara, had to add that because some people are the reverse of you!)
The fact is, you are not alone. It’s a perfectly reasonable thing to be shocked and horrified at the thought of such a diagnosis. It puts all kinds of thoughts into your head. To do with health, mobility, money, work, relationships, family. There isn’t one thing that ultimately doesn’t cross your mind, regardless of your current situation in life.
One good thing is that there are now many disease modifying drugs (DMDs) available for people with relapsing remitting MS. These are supposed to reduce the number and severity of relapses. Many people get on a DMD that suits them, and they don’t have too much trouble with MS for many years.
Do you have an MS nurse assigned to you yet? If not, hopefully you will soon. And s/he will guide you through the DMD process and help you to get your head round the whole thing. If you haven’t been given the contact details of a nurse, try phoning the neurologists secretary and ask for help in contacting an MS nurse.
And keep talking to us here. We’ll try and help over the next weeks and months with whatever you need.