Hi, im new to these forums -actually this is my first ever post!!
I got diagnosed in july 2011 with MS. In 2008 i got diagnosed with demylination but when the numbness returned in 2010 it was more agressive. I’d collapse in the street, fall down stairs, bump into anything (i’d pinball down a corridoor bumping from wall to wall), i couldnt even grab anything as i would drop it, i was covered in cuts, bruises and scars especially on my legs. All of this lasted till august 2011 which was when i was put on Medrone for 5 days -i cant believe how much its changed my life!! my balance had improved like it was before i got the demylination. my doctors told me to take a d3 vitamin tablet -i take 4 a day in the winter and 3 a day in the summer. Before i took the Medrone my life was hell. i had no life, i’d stay at home and wouldnt go out. going to work was horrible -how can you explain the numbness and bad balance to people? i had good and bad days like some days the numbness wouldnt be as bad and i’d be able to do things and on the bad days i wouldnt be able to get out of bed cos if i did i’d fall as soon as i got out of bed. its horrible. i had to suffer for 10 months before they put me on Medrone which im seriously not happy about. even for my birthday i couldnt do anything!!
I had to tell my manager in work (which i didnt want to do) because its embarrassing. i told my manager that i need to go the toilet as soon as i need it otherwise it’ll give me a UTI which people with MS are prone to have as the bladder doesnt empty properly. I also had to explain to my manager that the nerves and muscles dont work together in a way. before i was diagnosed last year id had 6 water UTI’s in 2 months!! when i have a UTI i relapse and my bad balance and sometimes numbness returns
So somethng happened in work the other day (MS related) and as of now im so down and crying all the time, i really dont know what to do. Ive got another UTI which now has me on strong antibiotics for 7 days. so today i rang the MS nurses up to see if they could give me any advice but they havent gotten back in touch with me as of now, ive booked a dr’s appointment for monday to talk about going on anti-biotics for 3 months to stop me getting UTI’s. im going to make an appointment with neurosupport so they can give me advice on how to deal with work.
Since i got told i had MS ive changed my life -how i eat, i exercise more -i even bought a wii fit plus which has helped alot! ive changed everything.
I have only told 5 people that i have it, i cant tell anyone or talk about it as i just cry. even typing this im crying.
Im a very positive person, i dont even think i have MS until something happens that reminds me that i have it like a UTI. when im down (like i am now) i have all these horrible thoughts like i’ll never be able to have kids or a relationship cos no one is gonna wanna be with anyone who’s like this and i know this isnt the way to think. i never think like that until im down due to my MS. i hate being like this, i dont like being negative or being around negative people.
I really don’t know what to do anymore, im really upset!