So sorry to hear of your diagnosis and please be assured that your reaction is entirely normal. Being diagnosed with MS is rather like a bereavement and we can go through the same emotions as those suffering a bereavement. Known as the Grief cycle the stages are - denial, anger, bargaining, sadness ( which can sink into depression ) and finally acceptance. And because of the fluctuating/progressive nature of MS we can go through these stages several times. But sooner or later most people come to accept their condition and to adapt. However it is not easy to do this on your own - and there is a lot of help out there so I would encourage you to find support.
This forum of course is a great place to start - there is always someone here to offer a kind word or to provide useful information. Your MS nurse as suggested is another place to start. You should also contact your local MS Society branch - each branch has one or more trained support volunteers who can offer a listening ear or signpost you to local services and groups. My branch runs a course for the newly diagnosed and their partners which most people find really useful. Try the Near me facility on this site to identify your local branch and they will tell you how to contact your support volunteer.
You could also find out if there is an MS Therapy centre near you - there is a network of these centres all over the UK offering all sorts of therapies incuding physiotherapy, oxygen therapy, acupuncture and yoga. They can also be good places to meet people with MS. I have made several good friends via my local centre and five of us now meet for coffee every month - we call it The Crocks Coffee Club.
My MS society branch also has a social sub-group which meets a couple of times a month. We don’t sit there weeping into our beer or coffee or spend the whole time talking about MS - but if one of us is having a bad day, we understand. There is a saying that you don’t ‘get’ MS until you get it! So I would encourage you to find others with MS whom you can meet and chat with from time to time.
are also helplines - the MS Society has a helpline staffed by specially trained available Mon - Fri from 09.00am - 09.00pm. And another MS charity MS-UK has a helpline staffed by qualified BACP counsellors available 09.00am - 05.00pm Mon - Friday. You can also access face-to-face counselling via the NHS Talking Therapies service. If you do have a Therapy centre near you they usually offer counselling by counsellors experienced in dealing with people with MS and their families.
And finally there are some excellent publications from the MS society and MS Trust which provide information on every aspect of MS including coming to terms with diagnosis.
Hope this helps - happy to ‘discuss’ further if you wish to send me a private message. Trust me, there is life after MS.