Hi everyone,
Hope you’re all well and enjoying the weather.
I went to see my MS nurse yesterday and have been given my first batch of Tecfidera and am meant to be starting today. I was absolutely fine yesterday but now the time has come and I am freaking out.
I really really don’t want to start this medication. It sounds horrible and scary and people don’t seem to have the best experience on it. I am sure that some people are absolutely fine on this medication but it is still freaking me out.
I stupidly started looking into Tec and weight gain and a lot of people seem to have commented on this being an issue. I know it sounds stupid and vain but sadly it’s something that matters to me a lot. I used to have eating problems and issues and in the last couple of years I’ve managed to banish those demons and not go back down the eating disorder path but I am just so scared that weight gain could be the trigger to send me back there. Sorry if this just sounds so stupid.
I still don’t really even feel I have MS. I know I do, I’m not in denial about that, but honestly (and I am so grateful believe me) my life has not altered too drastically since this journey all began. I was diagnosed a year ago after having vision problems and my neurologist believes I had my second episode last summer where I had some fatigue. Since then she has wanted me to start medication and after having a new MRI with more active lesions she has pushed me even more to start. I know I should take her advice but I feel fine at the moment! I really am so lucky that I have not got any symptoms really since my original loss of vision and part of me feels why should I put myself on such hard meds when I am really not effected by my MS at the moment?
Anyway, I just wanted to post this to see if anyone had any thoughts about this. If they think Tec is the right decision even though I have no symptoms or their own experience on it? Just any advice or anything would really help because I really am starting to freak myself out massively (from an hour googling, i now hate the internet)
Sophia x