I am rough today (still sitting around in a dressing-gown), but I know it’s at least partially self-inflicted, as I sat up all night Thursday to watch the election results. I hadn’t been going to - I thought I’d watch 'til about midnight (at the latest) and then go to bed. But of course, once I’d started, I was so gripped I couldn’t go to bed and just leave it. I should have known that would happen!
Luckily, I don’t work, so was able to spend most of Friday in bed. I had coffee and toast about 6:30 a.m, but didn’t know if it was breakfast or a super-late supper - then retired to bed.
Yesterday, despite not being fully back on track, I decided to go to a food festival in Bristol, which was more walking about than I’d normally do, and actually was a bit lame - unless you’re into paying £6 for a kebab, which you don’t even get to sit down to eat. So it took me about 20 minutes to walk round the lot, and decide it was all overpriced rubbish I didn’t particularly fancy.
I then walked to Marks and Spencer instead - another long walk - and believe me, their snacks and ready meals looked cheap compared to the street vendors I’d just seen, and they say M&S is expensive! So bought some groceries and a couple of (heavy!) bottles of plonk in there, and struggled back with it all on the train.
Missed the hourly train by so little it was still on the departure board as I got there, despite having already left, so had a whole hour to kill, which I spent in the station bar, trying to make one lukewarm and rather horrid G&T last the time.
Got home OK, and had a relatively early night, by my standards (despite being ill, I’m still largely nocturnal, and often a midnight or beyond person). Woke up this morning full of good intentions (like clean the house, revise my college work for a prize end-of-term quiz on Wednesday). Haven’t done any of it.
Have dossed around, listened to music, posted on a few forums, played some online games - that’s it.
About to return to bed to listen to Radio 4’s Classic Serial, but I usually nod off during that these days, unless it’s exceptionally gripping!
Also got a problem with a sore and weepy eye, which is nothing to do with MS (that anyone’s been able to establish), but is making me more tired and irritable.
All I know is it’s not an infection (been tested multiple times) or (that we know of) a rheumatology spectrum disorder, as I’ve had complete rheumatology screening - twice!
So a bit peed off I’ve got a depressing but unrelated thing on top of all the usual MS crap. It’s also affecting morale in another way, because I look so awful with a red, weepy eye. My MS is almost completely invisible - I tire quickly, and am noticeably apprehensive with balance, but otherwise you wouldn’t guess there’s a problem. But the eye makes it look as if I have rampant lurgy, much more than the MS ever has!