Thank you so much for this insightful and sensitive reply Spacemonkey
Throughout lifes travails I have always found that there is nothing to beat fellowship with others in the same boat and you have confirmed this view.
I dont know anyone else with MS,yet, and although I have had a relatively straightforward path,yes it is lonely and requires deep digging.As is my wont,Im often told I am too analytical, I have found making links with the past helpful.
And I couldnt help but be struck that the episode of ON which came out of the blue,although I had had minor numbness and tingling etc occurred very shortly after my younger child had told me that she was pregnant ,the older one also having children,after much difficulty,and this meant that I felt my ‘lifes work was done’.
I mentioned this 'life stage 'issue to the excellent MS nurse but she did not recognise this as a feature of the onset of MS.
Yet again,let me acknowledge that I imagine being diagnosed at an earlier stage in life and wrestling with childcare,work etc is more demanding,and ,oh dear,writing this,yes that is how it was for me in my forties,also confronting a terrifying and unusual adversary that had changed my life forever for the worse.
Psychobabble rules ok…
And all the best to you with your current freaking state,it is very impressive that you can give so much to others whilst in that horrible place.
Ending on a positive,I am now taking Sertraline,an SSRI ,and despite the usual,oh no I wont take medication,thats just for the weak and feeble etc it has had a very beneficial effect and helped me with the ‘live for today’ philosophy which we should all, and not just those of us in this club ,adopt of course.