I’m curious about the state of my brain and eager to show my latest MRI images (done for a research project) to a neurologist in the hope of shedding some light on what is happening in my body to cause these various symptomatic experiences.
Whilst trying to educate myself a bit (not so easy anymore, with faulty memory, shortened concentration, fatigue and eyeballs that ocassionally judder from side to side, lising my place), I found this:
I’m half tempted to just out and ask my neuro ‘So, how’s my thalamus then?’! Seriously, though, I am concerned about brain atrophy. I know it happens with age but surely, not so suddenly between the ages of 38-40? I can see that my eyes have sunk, which you might expect if I was skinny but sad to say I’m a bit overweight (Only by one dress size but I’m not comfortable with that).
I am hopeful that this next encounter with a neurologist might shed more light. I am sure in my gut that there is something physical going on. At this point, I’m feeling determined and scared. I accept that I have CFS, I even accept that I may well have FND as they tell me I do…but I need a neurologist who will listen to me and be thorough in examining all the evidence that I have tried to give them. I feel like I’ve been fobbed off by being told I’m ‘hypervigilant’ and offered Duloxetine I suspect as an anti-anxiety drug. I’m slipping into a rant here, sorry, but I’m so fed up of limboland. That and the last neuro’s insincere cheshire-cat grin is haunting me…
The FND group are wonderful but there are still experiences I read on here which more closely echo my own. I could use a hug now.