I thought at 66 MS was bad enough, but suddenly becoming a widow without any warning has to be the worse thing anyone can face.
They say that stress makes MS worse well they were not kidding. I have lost so many abilities at the moment i just feel drained. I am now struggling to do the basic things.
I was a happy person even with MS now i am just not me anymore. Half of me has gone.
PPMS is now advancing at a fast state I can barely walk now and do basic things.
I dont understand PPMS will it get better once the pain of bereavement settles down, should i talk to my doctor, well i have actually she put me on amytriptyline as the pain at night is unbearable but it makes me so sick, and i dont see her until the 9th for a review again.
I am not sure i can keep going at this rate. I just want to curl up and switch off. I can barely get out of bed, and at night now i am on my own and have to struggle to get up and down the stairs as my husband used to help me when i was having a bad morning. I cant afford any more care and i am still above the savings limit for help.
Is there anything i can do to try and calm this disease down? I dont even know why i am writing this to be honest, i just feel so alone now and have no one to talk it through in the night like now.
Sorry i am just so down i dont look forward to getting up as its a struggle all over again.