Hi there, my name is Isobel. I’ve had MS since 2016 and am on Ocrevus. At my last appointment there were no new leions on my scans, but because I’ve been slowly worsening for over 6 months now (EDSS gone from 2.5 to 5.5) my consultant says it looks like secondary progressive. Which I was kind of expecting, but still…wasn’t a fun conversation. I guess the thing that’s really got me is I’ve always assumed I’ll do loads of rehab and be a bit better in the future, and now I’ve got to get my head around the fact that I won’t be a sprightly grandmother, or maybe even there at all to support my children. I’ve seen people with end stage MS and I’m terrified. I’m fine wandering about with my walker or scooter, and I have the most amazing husband and kids (5 and 6). But I don’t want to be incontinent, and I don’t want to lose myself to the cognitive issues. I already have memory and attention problems and survive on post-it notes but I’m still me.
I suppose I’m hoping someone has some reassurance or words of wisdom.