I was diagnosed with PPMS 2016, i just got on with it, neurologist didnt really know much about it when i first went to him 2007 so that is why it took so long as i didnt match the MacDonald criteria.
PPMS is supposed to be slow progressive we never really have remmissions. I just carried on with it and coped as well as i could.
towards the beginning of this year i was taken into hospital (about six months ago) with a suspected stroke. it turned out i had new active lesions on my T10 and T11. iN A WAY oddly it made me feel better as i had convinced myself i didnt have MS lol.
WELL anyway things are worsening for me now. I see nurse and i have had CBT and also just had a pschlogy meeting twice, which seriously didnt help.
I was told to read up about handling fatigue in PPMS through MS society. my fatigue is off the charts i feel vile all the time, and can barely function now to do anything. There on the article is a nice man explaining how his RRMS effects his fatigue.
Talk about going to meetings as well and xmas meals on the newsletter i have just received.
I WISH. Seriously i am HOUSEBOUND, do i want to be NO. But i am exhausted, in pain everyday so bad i could scream. If i try to go out, on my wheelchair with my care worker the effort is killing for days, i am exhausted for days if i have a shower. my legs, bowel and bladder are affected, this could be down to the new lesions.
the pychologist thought as i have such a sharp brain, i could be doing things, going on line course, meeting people, perhaps i should, but my life for me and my safe place is my home.
Can the MS Society not do a survey on PPMS and how it affects us? or am i just abnormal. I try everyday to walk a bit in my tiny house and i will not stay in bed all day i DO GET up, I AM tired, pain. Just having family for an hour wipes me out for days.
do i want to be like this hell now. I am 74 years old.
i am extremely healthy otherwise and keep a good weight.
is there anything you having PPMS can advice?
Just would like to chat about RRMS versus PPMS. there is a huge difference surely?