Contemplating suicide

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This will come across as a cry for help but it’s really not .

i wonder if anybody can relate , I have had enough of having no life , every inch of my body tingles , aches and feels not mine .

i finished steroids yesterday but feel completely “out of it”

my whole body is feeling like its buzzing , electrocuted , wired up to the mains , every inch of my body and skin is tingling .

the brain fog is crippling and eyes feel awful .

i feel so disconnected it’s ridiculous .

i want out .

had it !

is this m.s , steroids or me having a breakdown ?

sorry

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probably the steroids,they can mess with your head :frowning:

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In the words of my good neurologist “I have known steroids to induce psychosis in people”. In other words they totally mess with your head. Hang in there X

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It’s the steroids talkin’. Hang in there - the effects subside. Changes to behaviour are well known. My work colleagues stayed well out of my way, and didn’t dare wake me when I fell asleep at my desk! I would bite peoples heads off ('roid rage), but apologise straight away, as I knew it was the meds talking.

I also had strange sensations all over after finishing my course. Felt like I was really bruised. Every part of me that I prodded was sore (and no, I hadn’t broken my finger!). Again, after a couple of days it subsided.

Give it a few days you’ll be back to ‘Normal’!

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Every inch of me is tingling and shaky , my legs don’t feel like my own , my head is a mess , it’s awful !

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Do you think you can have a nap for a few hours? Preferably longer? The more time you spend asleep, the less time you’ll be putting up with the symptoms. Failing that, a good film or something to occupy your mind? It’s not going to be easy, but you just need to get through the next day or two.

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Gaz

Just to add my voice to all the others. Your suicidal thoughts are almost certainly a result of the steroids. They mess with your head, and as they have affected you physically too, it’s making life seem unendurable.

You really just need to exist for the next couple of days, try and sleep if you can through the wired brain. Try to distract yourself if you can’t sleep, with a film, tv, book, people, even porn if that’s what gets you through. in effect, just try some escapism as an avoidance technique.

And don’t forget, if you still have the feelings in a few weeks time, you can deal with it then. By which I don’t mean hang on for a few days then kill yourself, but hang on for a few days and if you still feel this dreadful get some help. Or make yourself a GP appointment now, and if you get sorted before the appointment day, then cancel.

Stick with us, you’re obviously an intelligent man who’s dealing with physical deterioration and it’s bloody hard, but try not to let the MS win.

Sue

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The steroids messed with me too, made my body feel terrible. try to hang in there.

All best wishes x

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Oh my goodness. I have nothing to add except to wish you the very best and I really hope this resolves. I’m sure it will pass.

Plots of love and good wishes…Flo xx

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That typo is embarrassing…sorry!

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Hi, what I cant get over, is the way lots of drugs, which are supposed to make our lives better, do the exact opposite.

Its like anti-depressants...they can actually make you suicidal! Whats the chuffin point in that, I scream?

Cancer drugs too…kill the nasties and make you jolly ill before they help.

Why the chuffin ummer, cant they get it right first off. I know, I`m talking tripe, but it angers me.

Now then Gaz, let me try to help…who have you got in your life who loves you to bits and would be totally distraught if you werent in theirs? Who can you confide in , apart from us here?

You need cushioning, loving and cradling…wish I could do that for you…

pollx

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