I do try and not live in the past. If you change the past, your here and now and the future change also.
Do wish at the odd time, I hadn’t “thrown my toys out of the pram” and stayed in the Air Force for longer when I was younger though
Was married to an alcoholic (hard work that!) but without her, I wouldn’t have 2 lovely children and 1 beautiful grand child.
My present partner, is really fantastic about the MS, me having been dxd about a yr after we got together. She’s still with me, even though I did keep telling her to leave- didn’t want anyone feeling sorry for me (still don’t), couldn’t have taken that as well. That caused a few arguments and looking back, I shouldn’t have done that either- her choice after all.
She’s still with me, even though I’ve probably become a bit stroppier since turning 50 and joining the “Saga Lout brigade”. Or do us blokes just become stroppier anyway?
So, using what if;
I’d have done a few more years in the Military- possibly leading to an early death.
I wouldn’t have 2 beautiful children,a gorgeous grand daughter or a beautiful partner ,who makes me proud to be with her, now.
Still have bloody MS though!!!
Memories and the past are good. Don’t dwell on them as you start to believe things would have been better for the good.
That may not be true