Afternoon, hope everyone is well and still smiling!
I’ve been struggling a little bit the last few weeks, both physically and emotionally. The 12 month anniversary of my husbands death has just been and gone and my Dad has had treatment for bowel cancer. Fortunately he’s on the mend as it was caught very early! I know stress triggers flare ups for me and I think I’m stuck in a bit of a vicious circle - I’m not feeling good physically which is affecting my mood on top of everything else and that then makes me feel worse!
I was thinking of going to see the GP tomorrow and ask if he thinks a couple of weeks off work will be of benefit, both to give me a rest and to let all the stuff whirling around my head settle down a little. Now work had always been very supportive until I had a dose of flu in March this year when they accused me of abusing the sick pay scheme and stopped my company sick pay for that period. I also had an absence review in April where my percentage for the previous 26 weeks exceeded their limits so the payment of the first three days of absence has been stopped until the next review in October.
If I have any time off now my occassions and percentage are both going to be at the lowest they’ve been since I was diagnosed in 2009 but after all the negativity earlier in the year I’m feeling really paranoid about any time off. I know the figures are better so there shouldn’t be an issue but I’m still worrying. In fact since my husband passed away I’m finding that I’m worrying about all sorts of trivial things, I never thought of myself as a worryer but anxiety certainly seems to be becoming an issue.
After all that rambling I suppose I just want someone to tell me that I’m being paranoid, work can see that my figures have improved and that there’ll be no problem xx