Met with my GP to discuss the next steps following my clear brain and c-spine MRI, I was expecting a referral to counselling but after discussing my symptoms he wants me to go back to a neurologist for a further MRI?! I did initially want a T-spine MRI but then I decided I was being irrational and that I should just go with the doctors. However this now puts me back at square one!
I’m terribly stressed out by all of this, my symptoms haven’t improved in fact they’re probably a little bit worse in that I notice them when doing the smallest activities now. I’m so fed up of all of this diagnostic business. I just want to be a regular 22 year old!!! I miss waking up in the morning and being excited for the future. I’m petrified!
On top of all of this, I’m also being referred to a dermatologist for what looks like melanoma on the back of my leg (it better be benign because I never go in the sun and I have the vitamin D deficiency to prove it!!!). Surely I have enough to deal with! I’m in my final year of university and this is having a terrible effect on my studies. Sorry to moan, I’m just in a bit of a “why me?” place and I can’t seem to speak to any of my friends because when they complain about putting a few pounds on or having a few deadlines to deal with I just feel myself starting to explode!!!
I understand everyone has their own problems but I just don’t want to hear about trivial business when i’m having the worst time of my life! It’s insensitive to complain about small issues to someone having two big health scares in my honest opinion.