I'm over 12 stone for the first time in my life. Haven't had a fag since October 1st and gave up the e-cig on November 5th... SO I'm doing ok there... BUT I'm getting so fat. My body shape has really changed and now have a huge bottom and a rapidly expanding bust!!!
I have visions of turning into the mother in 'What's Eating Gilbert Grape?' where, when she dies, they are told that the roof of the house will have to be removed and her body removed by a crane...
Ok ok I know 12 stone is not actually that obese but before MS I hovered around 10 stone and before giving up the fags I was about 11 stone 4lb. So you can see where this is going.
I'm trying to keep telling myself that the extra weight is still better than the fags!
On the 'up' side, I'm less flabby than I was... more like an overstuffed cushion now. I'm hoping my face will get fatter and fill in some of the wrinkles (seriously!).
Isn't it all so difficult? I mean I spent years beating myself up for smoking and now, after 44 years, I've managed to stop and now I'm beating myself up for eating!!! AND at the same time I'm dealing with blo*dy MS.
Started out not really knowing why I was posting and now realise that I needed a rant!
Thanks for listening gang. Bit quiet on here so hope you're all doing ok and keeping warm.