Okay, so I am an 18 year old female and for the past 2ish years, I’ve experienced various issues which have lead me to think I may have MS.
I get a pins and needles feeling over my back that comes and goes that varies in specific location but is usually over my shoulder blades (I’ve read that pins and needles in the lower back is common in MS but I havent seen anything about upper). I also get pins and needles on my head, usually around the crown of my head/ scalp or over one side of my face (I don’t recall it ever being over my whole face). I’ve gotten used to this now so I’m not sure how frequent this is but it is daily and each burst lasts about a minute.
I’ve also noticed that I have spasms and difficulty moving and controlling my arm and hand movements (most noticeably in my left hand). For example, I will be holding my phone in my hand and involuntarily launch it across the room, when it happens people comment and say that it looks like I’ve just raged out and chucked it. I am a guitarist and fortunately this doesnt interfere with my playing too much at the moment but sometimes I’ll be telling my hand to move or change position but theres a delay, it’s like its paralysed for a moment.
My balance and depth perception have gotten quite poor but I’ve only noticed as of the past year or so. I find my self falling into walls, walking against walls to balance, stumbling when walking and stumbling when going to stand up. I also noticed this week that I went to grab a door handle, totally missed it and nearly fell over.
After doing some research into MS I also found that some of my bladder issues that I’ve always taken as being a random bodily quirk might have some weight. I pee about once an hour, usually with an urgent need to go and often struggle to actually start peeing once I get there. So much so that friends and family comment on the frequency. I was once in the staff toilets at work with a work friend and she commented on how I wasnt going and then when I did, I stopped and started. So its not just me noticing haha.
These are just a few of the specifics that are most prominent for me at the moment but going through the list of MS symptoms, I can check off over half.
My concern is that even though people my age do have MS, its not that common so is it possible I have it? I also have a history of mental illness and eating disorders and I’m wondering whether these symptoms are caused by the paranoia/delusional aspect of my illness or damage from my ED (I’ve been in recovery for 2 years, coincidentally the amount of time I’ve experienced symptoms).
I know its better to be safe than sorry but due to the mental illness, I have a distrust and paranoia surrounding doctors (wouldn’t call it a fear) so I want to arm myself with facts and knowledge before I talk to any professionals. I’m also in a sticky situation of not being able to talk to friends or family, or anyone in my life really, about my concerns. I could just really use the advice of people with MS at the moment. I’ve brought this up with my therapist and she didnt really give me a straight forward answer (she rarely does).
Are my concerns valid? Did anyone else experience these symptoms to begin with? Or does anyone know of any other condition this could be if not MS or my existing conditions?