Hit a brick wall

Hello .Steve here . I am 52 years old and I was diagnosed in 1999. The year my team won the treble ! I am now secondary progressive . Legs dont move ! My bladder is shot (sick of smelling like pee) Energy levels at rock bottom as well as my mood ! I havent seen my four daughters for over a year, I think I embarass them. Ive been with my partner for 11 years (God I make her life so hard) I can see it in her face .The thought of another 25 years with this condition getting worse month by month,

fills me with dread. I just dont know how long I can go on ! I just wish I had the guts ! That would piss this disease of woulnt it ! Getting off the bus early ! At least it would lower my carbon footprint ! LOL