Hi, so last night i was standing still in my flat, and suddenly I lost balance and dropped on the floor and almost broke my arm, i cant bend my fingers properly. I have balance problems for quite a while and was always able to balance my self out but this time my body just betrayed me and i do feel a bit down again.
The nasty thoughts starting to creep into my head again like whats the point of life blah blah… the reality is im 28, i have nothing apart from my mum who brings me food and gives me money, and i just sit at home looking for a job, feeling lonely, isolated, having to take shitty buses to get to a job centre. I know a lot of you are worse than me mobility wise, but its not just my mobility its the mental state that im in, and right now im in a scary place of emptiness.
Most of you here got struck my ms in later stage of your life, when you already had, wifes/husbands, children, grand children, jobs, houses, experienced different things in life, I started to experience ms symptoms in my twenties, so my youth went down the drain.
Dont expect anyone to understand how it feels like to be me, but anyway, im writing this post not to get sympathy or attention, im hoping to get a little advice on how to improve my balance and ESPECIALLY how to get out of this mental misery.
Thanks for reading, appreciate that